I have finally made my return home to Morris for more than a few hours. It has been a month since I’ve seen my grandma. The bathroom looks pretty good even without it being painted yet. The yard needs mowed badly however.
I think I’ve finally gotten caught up with responding to my emails and messages. I have put up a picture update over at myspace with pictures from the show in Philly. You can check that out if you want.
I also put up a post on myspace the other day talking about my crush coming to an end. It doesn’t mean that I like the “gem of a girl” any less than I did a few days ago. As I said in the update, she is still smart, funny, nice and extremely beautiful. She is just those things from a farther distance away and I don’t see any chance in hell of being able to work anything out now. Then again, I’m not known for my optimism. The general rule of thumb is once you have acheived “The Chosen One” status, you will always have that status no matter what. The only thing that changes now is the level of hope that I have for actually achieving the goal. Besides, she has more important things on her plate right now anyway for me to waste her time.
Tomorrow is laundry and lawn mowing day and I’ll probably go visit my grandma Dorothy and Aunt Sharon and then stop by and visit Chuckie and see what his “some shit went down” is that he couldn’t tell me over the phone.
I will leave everyone with a very long survey that I just finished.
Good Day.
| A 200 Question Fun Survey 4 Myspace (All The Bzoink Surveys Put Together) | |
| Full Name:: | James Michael Fannin |
| Birthday:: | November 8 |
| Birthplace:: | Morris Community Hospital |
| Eye Color:: | brown |
| Hair Color:: | dark brown |
| Height:: | 5’9ish on a good day…mostly 5’8 anymore…gravity is slowly pulling me to closer to my grave |
| Weight:: | 260ish…it fluctuates |
| Right handed or Left handed?: | depends on what I’m doing…mostly right handed |
| Your Heritage:: | Irish, German, and I’m sure other things |
| My Worst Habit:: | My hatred and anger and temper and my negativity |
| Zodiac Sign:: | Scorpio but not Too Cold |
| Shoe Size:: | again it depends on the shoe but usually a 9. My feet are short and fat…just like me |
| Pants Size:: | 44 X 30 relaxed fit usually does the trick |
| Innie or Outie?: | Innie |
| Parents Still Together?: | they are both dead |
| The Shoes You Wore Today:: | new shoes that I bought from Wal-Mart with a Dr. Scholl’s gel pack in the heel. I’m so gelling that I’m Magellan. |
| Your Weakness:: | Redheads or strawberry blondes…in pigtails…braided…showing cleavage. I would not be able to hold on to any secrets if I were captured by a band of them |
| Your Fears:: | living to be old and alone, snakes, needles, extremely high heights, failure, rejection |
| Your Perfect Pizza:: | thick crust, pepperoni and pineapple |
| Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:: | well my goal is always this: find someone to love me. Since that isn’t likely, my wish for this year is that someone or something kills SHITLIST and it been so brutal that the result is a closed casket |
| Your Most Overused Phrase On An Instant Messenger: | I have no idea. I guess “yeah” since that is my standard response a lot of time when I’m doing other things |
| Thoughts First Waking Up:: | I need to go to the bathroom…I’m hungry…here comes another shitty day |
| Your Best Physical Feature:: | I have all my fingers and toes and no deformities |
| Your Bedtime:: | whenever I fall asleep. I go to bed early when in Morris but I toss and turn thinking about all the things that bother me until I eventually fall asleep several hours later |
| Your Most Missed Memory:: | Being a happy kid without any cares in the world and doing things with my mom and dad. The world corrupted me at a young age when it took that from me when I was only 3 |
| MY FAVORITES | |
| Favorite color?: | maroon, gold and white |
| Food?: | cheeseburgers |
| Sport?: | football…since the Cubs suck ass so bad this year, I’ve stopped watching baseball already |
| Animal?: | elephant |
| Ice Cream?: | vanilla |
| Candy?: | I don’t really have any |
| Store?: | Wal-Mart and Toys R Us |
| Salad Dressing?: | I don’t eat salads. That might prolong my life |
| Actor?: | Clint Eastwood, Laura Prepon, Reese Witherspoon, Denise Richards, John Wayne, Adam Sandler |
| Song?: | My Way |
| Letter?: | F |
| Number?: | 73 |
| Gum?: | trident citrus |
| Holiday?: | I don’t give a good God Damn |
| Season?: | fall |
| Toothpaste Flavor?: | I use vanilla mint crest |
| Radio Station?: | I listen to Mix 101.9 and country stations |
| Perfume?: | whatever works |
| Scent besides perfume?: | good food |
| Body part on the opposite sex?: | whatever is their best trait…eyes, lips, breasts, butt, legs. If they have all that, then they are the total package and I’m not talking Lex Lugar |
| FRIENDS AND LIFE | |
| What Do You Want To Be When You Grow Up?: | dead |
| How Do You Want To Die?: | in a blaze of glory and taking some enemies with me |
| Turn ons:: | when a woman doesn’t run away in disgust from me |
| Turn offs:: | when the woman does run away in disgust from me |
| Which One Of Your Friends Acts The Most Like You?: | Ian and I are alot alike minus the 420 and drinking |
| Who’s The Loudest?: | I’m not really sure |
| Who Makes You Laugh The Most?: | Maniwa |
| Who Have You Known The Longest?: | Chris…been best friends since we were 5 |
| Who’s The Shyist?: | Chris |
| When Have You Cried The Most?: | When my mom died |
| What Is The Best Feeling In The World?: | For me, it was when I was holding Shaina in my arms while we slept and I was in love and loved in return. The world was a perfect place and most importantly, I was happy |
| Worst Feeling?: | The “tucking in” of my mom and dad when they died right before they closed the casket and I knew that I would never see them again |
| Where Do You Want To Live When You Grow Up?: | I’m open to moving |
| If You Could Change One Thing About You What Would It Be?: | my being miserable. I would change that in a heartbeat and with that change, all the other bad things about me would change as well: the negativity, anger, hatred etc would all leave because I would be happy |
| How Long Do You Think You’ll Live?: | Just to spite me, God will make me live to be over 100. However, I will have no need to live past 44 cause by that time, I will be useless to James Christopher since I will have already passed all my knowledge onto him and he’ll be getting into girls and I would be of no help to him there |
| FINISH EACH SENTENCE | |
| Let’s walk on the: | proper side of the road so that we don’t get hit by a semitruck |
| Let’s look at the: | bright side even though it isn’t very bright |
| What a nice: | day today |
| Where did all the: | money go? |
| Why can’t we: | all just get along? |
| Silly, little: | rabbit…Trix are for kids |
| Isn’t it weird that: | we drive on a parkway and park on a driveway? |
| Never under any circumstance: | would I eat a hot dog |
| I wish: | that just one of my wishes would ever come true |
| Everyone has a: | price for the Million Dollar Man |
| I am: | Sam…Sam I am |
| HAVE YOU EVER | |
| Been In Love?: | yes. twice. |
| Been To Juvie?: | nope |
| Mooned Someone?: | My bare ass doesn’t get shown in public. It would be a disgusting and hideous sight. |
| Been Rejected?: | Counting each rejection from Mickie and then combined with about the other 12 that I’ve been rejected by, I’d say a conservative estimate would be 175 times |
| Ran Away From Home?: | no |
| Pictured Your Crush Naked?: | No. I can hardly picture them saying yes to me let alone getting naked for me |
| Skipped School?: | that is all I did in college |
| Thought About Suicide?: | yes but I’m pretty sure that is a surefire way to go to hell and thus I wouldn’t get to see my mom or dad or grandpa so it isn’t an option |
| Slept Outside?: | I don’t like camping. I live in the age of technology so I don’t have to live like it is 1600s and I don’t want to play fantasy for a weekend and see what it was like |
| Laughed So Hard You Cried?: | yes |
| Cried In School?: | yes…when my mom was dying and they called me home from school |
| Thrown Up In School?: | yes…I was mixing all the sodas together at a junior high dance and had about five cups of that concoction and then someone kicked me in the stomach and I ended up throwing u |
| Wanted To Be a Model?: | nope. I like to eat |
| Cheated On Someone?: | Never could. Never would. |
| Done Something Really Stupid That You Still Laugh At Today?: | lip synched Hot Rod Lincoln at the homecoming pep assembly my senior year with Jacob Lestina and David Friel |
| Seen A Dead Body?: | yes |
| Been Bitched Out?: | yes |
| Drank Alcohol?: | two sips of champagne and it was gross |
| Smoked?: | never |
| Been On Drugs?: | never. |
| Eaten Sushi?: | I would eat a hot dog first |
| Been On Stage?: | yes |
| Gone Skinny Dipping?: | I don’t get naked in public. It is the one thing that the world and I agree on |
| Shoplifted?: | from a baseball card show when the guy wouldn’t come and take my money for like five minutes. if he didn’t want my money, I wasn’t going to stand there all day waiting |
| Been Drunk?: | never |
| Been Called A Tease?: | can’t say that I have |
| Been Beaten Up?: | yes it has happened |
| DO YOU | |
| Swear?: | like a sailor but not on a Bible |
| Sing Well?: | Sinatra I can do well. I can sing along with the radio well enough…not so well at karoake sometimes though |
| Shower Daily?: | for the most part |
| Want To Go To College?: | already graduated |
| Want To Get Married?: | absolutely |
| Believe In Yourself?: | in all things that I can control. However, on all things that others control, like asking out on a date, I do not believe in myself |
| Get Motion Sickness?: | not that I know of |
| Think You Are Attractive?: | Some days I think that I am…most days I try not to look at myself |
| Get Along With Your Parents?: | I did before they died |
| Like Thunderstorms?: | Not when it happens a week straight when I’m in Baltimore and doesn’t let us do anything but sit in the house |
| Play An Instrument?: | I played saxophone for a couple of weeks in fifth grade band because my cousin played it. i quit |
| Own An IPOD?: | nope |
| Pray?: | I used to…none of them were answered so I decided to stop wasting my time |
| Go To Church?: | I used to but I don’t anymore |
| Sleep With Stuffed Animals?: | I still have a lamb that my grandma’s brother bought me when I was a month old for Christmas but it is put away. |
| Keep A Journal/Diary?: | Livejournal and myspace |
| Dance In The Rain?: | no |
| Sing In The Shower?: | no |
| THIS OR THAT | |
| Pepsi or Coke?: | Coke Zero |
| McDonald’s or Burger King?: | Burger King – chicken sandwich and a double whopper |
| Single or Group Dates?: | I’ll take whatever I can get so nothing |
| Chocolate or Vanilla?: | vanilla |
| Strawberries or Blueberries?: | strawberries |
| Meat or Veggies?: | beef |
| TV or Movie?: | tv |
| Guitar or Drums?: | I don’t give a shit |
| Adidas or Nike?: | Nike |
| Chinese or Mexican?: | Mexican – tacos and burritos – meat, beans, cheese, lettuce and ketchup only |
| Cheerios or Corn Flakes?: | neither |
| Cake or Pie?: | pie |
| MTV or VH1?: | VH1 |
| Blind or Deaf?: | deaf |
| Boxers or Briefs?: | boxer briefs |
| CAN YOU | |
| Do The Splits?: | not even close |
| Write With Both Hands?: | not legibly |
| Whistle?: | yes |
| Blow A Bubble?: | yes |
| Roll Your Tongue In A Circle?: | sort of |
| Cross Your Eyes?: | why would I want to? I’m ugly enough as it is |
| Walk With Your Toes Curled?: | slowly |
| Touch Your Tongue to Your Nose?: | not even close |
| Dance?: | I can do the slow rock back and forth and that is it |
| Eat Whatever You Want And Not Worry?: | I don’t worry about clogging my arteries |
| WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON | |
| You Touched:: | my grandma |
| You Talked To On The Phone:: | Mickie Knuckles when I called Ian to let him know that I made it back home safely |
| You Instant Messaged:: | Mickie Knuckles |
| You Hugged:: | my grandma |
| You Yelled At:: | I’m not sure who I yelled at last. Probably that jackass that was going to “squash” me at the show in Philly |
| You Played A Sport With:: | I shot baskets with Ian at one of Pondo’s shows a long time ago |
| WHAT’S THE LAST | |
| Time You Laughed?: | probably when I was watching That 70s Show at Ian’s Thursday night |
| Time You Cried?: | that is classified information |
| Movie You Watched?: | Star Wars III last night |
| Flavor Of Gum You Chewed?: | trident citrus |
| Joke You Told?: | I can’t remember |
| Song You’ve Sung?: | whatever was on the radio before I turned it onto the sports station to listen to them trash the Cubs |
| RIGHT AT THIS MOMENT | |
| Where Are You?: | my bedroom |
| What Can You See Out Your Window?: | nothing…the shades are down |
| Are You Listening To Music?: | nope |
| What Are You Wearing?: | sleeping attire |
| What’s On Your Mousepad?: | I don’t have one |
| BELIEFS | |
| Do you believe there is life on other planets?: | it is possible. I haven’t seen any proof but it is possible |
| Do you believe in miracles?: | No |
| Magic?: | No |
| Love at first sight?: | No |
| God?: | Yes and God hates my guts |
| Satan?: | Yes because if it isn’t God that is making me miserable as hell then it is Satan |
| Ghosts?: | Ian, Mickie and my grandma believe that some are in my house…probably my mom and dad since they both died in the house |
| Santa?: | sure why not |
| Evolution?: | Benoit, Malenko, Eddie were good but I can do without Perry Saturn |
| IN A BOY/GIRL… | |
| Fav Eye Color:: | doesn’t really matter |
| Fav Hair Color:: | RED, RED, RED, RED and strawberry blonde because it has a hint of RED |
| Short or Long Hair:: | long |
| Height:: | shorter than me |
| Weight:: | I go for a woman that has some meat on her bones but not a bodybuilder |
| Best Clothing Style:: | whatever is comfortable |
| RANDOM | |
| What Country Would You Most Like To Visit?: | Italy or Ireland |
| Number Of CD’s I Own:: | 30ish |
| Your Good Luck Charm:: | I don’t have good luck so if I have a good luck charm, it is broken |
| How many pillows do you sleep with?: | one |
| Do you drink milk?: | yes |
| Person You Hate Most:: | SHITLIST. I wish death upon him. Painful death and soon. Then I would like to hold a contest to see who my number one fan is by seeing who the first to piss on his grave is |
| Most Outdated Phrase:: | I have no idea |
| Do you think God has a gender?: | I don’t know |
| Where do you think we go when we die?: | into a box and then into the ground or into an incinerator; after that, it is up for debate |
| How many rings until you answer the phone?: | depends |
| What is something scientists need to invent?: | a device that allows men to finally know what women are thinking |
| Are you a health freak?: | nope. I don’t really give a shit about my health |
| Are you a virgin?: | no |
| If you could travel into space, where would you go?: | I have no interest in going into space |
| What is the worst weather?: | extremely hot…I think I’m allergic to my own sweat (David, Ian and Mickie will get that) or extremely cold or raining like it was in Baltimore when we went to inner harbor |
| Did you play with Barbies as a child?: | nope but I did play with my WWF LJN and AWA Remco figures |
| How many grades have you failed?: | none |
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